靠腰！

姊我竟然還有這個榮幸可以跨年！

不用看煙火不用看3000粒氣球升天。

只有看人家唱歌哈哈哈哈哈哈！

無論如何跨年還是不要一個人過比較好。感謝有陪我的人，無論是在現場，whatsapp，facebook。

姊我喝了很多杯的紅酒都沒有醉！！

科科科科科科創新記錄了～

祝大家新年快樂，明年會更好！:3

Nonchalant

So i changed my blog title to "Nonchalant".
I do hope it would be my ultimate goal in 2015, because my dad says I freak out a lot. Like really a lot. Hence I aim to be nonchalant. Although I doubt it is used to describe people :3

我擦！

徐嬌究竟是有多高啊？都可以瘦到42.7kg。這樣子還是人嗎？也未免太勵志了吧！

Confession #6

I think I'm a psycho.

Confession #5

I used to hate calls.

Used to.

Now? I don't know. Fine.

Maybe I got use to getting calls.

But some do are heart-warming and happy, which I love. 

I prefer texting but I'm sure I have no more money.

There are also times where I wonder if I can start over. Like if I can go back and choose more wisely and never to end up in such a bad situation. Like control freaks and such uggggghhhh. But I know it's impossible to change the past. Might as well change the future.

People always think that once they have it they must have it forever, and they never thought to try. 

短篇

妈蛋，实在恨不得把这台电脑拿去format掉。
生气的就只有这一点哈哈哈！

另外也很想要做时光机回到去年的海外书市…后悔啊啊啊啊！
原来去年我就错过了那么多本好看的书！有时候也是应该做足资料准备的唔～
最近的确迷上了日本作家，因为他们貌似无所不谈，而且都有种fu，让你看了文笔就知道是日本人写的fu。本人华文造诣真的有点不好，无法比喻出来。

其实不想说很多，就到这里了。再会。

Confession #4

....erm.

I have seen many of my favourite bloggers went through plastic surgery. And to be honest, I think they look so much more beautiful after plastic surgery.

For once I never thought of myself beautiful. Actually the only feature that I hated the most is my nose. Although my nose is quite high, but it's too big on my face and a little crooked. 

I've actually tried to search google about reducing nose size, but to no result.

I am definitely skeptical on nose implants. I doubt nose implants, because to be honest I don't want anything inside my face. I rather like saw my nose bones into a smaller size than putting L shape things  inside. But I can't search it in google for a more definite explanation.

But I guess when I become a grown woman, plastic surgery may improve. So yeah, I hope to do minor nose reduction and straigthening on my nose bones and cartilage. Well doctors now can even unbalanced jaws, so i don't think it's that hard to straightened my nose haha.

Two bloggers I know qiuqiu and xiaxue, they are both brave women. Especially qiu qiu. I have seen her boob job and plastic surgery videos, and I think it's inspiring. We somehow feel insecure about our looks, so to boost confidence, we take plastic surgery. And I don't think there is anything wrong about it. Other people doesn't know the things they have gone through, so comes the wave of hate. But for me, they inspire me in this way. This is how I can get away from all the hate one day I have plastic surgery. Although I still have my rules in not inserting anything inside my face as much as I could. Just cut open my nose and sawed  it more even and smaller hahaha.

Dark Chocolate 99%

今天去读“阅事”。看了心里莫名感到惭愧吧！哈哈哈！不过心里也默默地数着自己应该要买的书有哪些了…她介绍的书也的确是很好看的呢！我现在读的有两本，一本是Mitch Albom的Tuesdays With Morrie。还有一本是米泽穗信的《追想五断章》。不过经过“阅事”的一些推荐后，我已经心里记载了一些想要阅读/购买的书籍，不过呢，我也希望我可以先读完我已经购买了的书吧哈哈！

今天我回学校去了，为了讨论我们学会自行制作“小册子”事宜。老实说我觉得刚开始还有点拖泥带水的，后来越讨论就越有起劲哈哈哈！嗯，是很欣慰的一件事呢！不过工作分配的部分已经交代了，这个假期也应该好好召集组员们来做了。哈哈！

因为要回学校讨论，伟伦也就把我要求他带来的蛇皮拿来了。不过说真的，应该是因为我是城市小孩吧，童年…还真是无趣。所以第一看完整的蛇皮，天啊实在是漂亮！而且比我想象的还要小只…呵呵！那是后在伟伦po的照片看起来蛮大只的嘛…原来就是那么一盒。不过小盒也好啦！我想要去买一个玻璃罐然后好好地装起来，就当作是一个不劳而获的装饰品吧！好没有成就感唉～不过希望在来日我也可以真正体会到大自然吧！哈哈！

我吃了爸爸偷偷私藏的99%黑巧克力。天，简直就是杀人。不过回味无穷哈哈哈哈！还是一天吃一小片比较安全吧！挺苦的！

明天就是我去听undang的时候了。感觉上还蛮兴奋的呢！！嘻嘻，祝我不会无聊致死吧哈哈！

Confession #3

I absolutely love beautiful.

Beautiful people, beautiful things, beautiful events.

To me, beautiful is what can be seen as a delight through the naked eye and also what is magnificent in the heart.

Call me a perfectionist and I never object.

Which is why, if I do have what it takes, I am willing to be perfect at all cost. 

Of course the heart cannot be shapened somehow. Am I kind enough? Do I have empathy? I'm not sure. 

But I really do find the need to be beautiful on the outside, so I may really love myself.

Follow +1

其实写部落格，也快有4，5年了吧。

不包括我之前小学时期写的，太没有回忆功能，删掉了。

不过4，5年了，我现在却是第一次关注（follow）人家的部落格。

也不算第一次啦，之前都在用blogskin的时候，都是摘录网址，放个link的。

不过现在真的是follow了啦。

第一次，我却不懂要如何follow。

跌跌撞撞终于去找google帮忙了。嗯，太好了，成功follow！

算是在google搜索时无意进入的一个blog：

“阅事”

简介里写的“恶搞”，其实我还不是很明白呢。

无论如何，觉得这位同胞还挺有趣的就follow了。

令我有所启发的，就是她会在每一年结束后，记录下她在那一年里所阅读的数量和书名。我怎么都没想到这些唉。虽然我不能说是读书达人，但起码对于阅读还是有一定的热忱。其实几乎每一年无论是学校表格，自我介绍，还是同学手册，在个人资料的“爱好”栏都少不了，或者是只有“阅读”吧。并非炫耀，只能说本人的兴趣，爱好，才华实在是趋近于零。不过现在也可以写一个“观星”，“天文摄影”，“远距遥控”这类非比寻常的兴趣了。呵呵。

这一年的结束。

尤其是这一年。这个月假期，让我实在茫然，彷徨，无奈。

一，是要毕业了。

二，假期作业还没完成。

三，没去旅游

四，没有前往兽医目标前进

五，没有准备统考

以此类推。

而且今年的成绩上半年和下半年的总平均也实在是大跌眼镜，落差大。这不是好消息。

无论如何，过去的也不能改了，只能在剩下的这一年努力。未来的转折点，就是靠这个喜洋洋（羊羊）的一年了！

其实昨天，我才读完了《算计》这本书。我想这是继“古典部系列”，我最喜欢的推理小说了。虽然说是推理，但我实在是懒惰用头脑去推理，都是一页页地翻。我觉得这不是一个读推理小说的好方法啦！就好像没有人会用叉子吃饭，用汤匙吃意大利面吧！我在香港的时候曾经买了Sherlock Holmes完整版的。天啊，那简直就是外星文嘛！根本就看不懂。就像是《圣经》那样，只可以读得明白Genesis和Exodus。而Sherlock Holmes，也不过是读得明白华生和夏洛克相遇的时候罢了。我想我还是需要一些时间。

我告诉我的好友说，《算计》其实在几年前就买了下来。可是一直都没有读，因为那时候读了觉得很无聊。现在重新从柜子拿了出来，读了就简直无法自拔。只花了三天就吧300多页给横扫完毕了。不过我相信这不是一种能力啦。我有时候细嚼慢咽，有时候狼吞虎咽。明年晨读我想应该细嚼慢咽了呵呵。

之前我从“冰菓”这部动漫发现了这本轻小说（古典部系列）。后来就发现了这个作家，米泽穗信，还有他一系列的作品啦。接着就是人肉搜索般寻找哪里可以买他的书，后来找到了，也是有一些成就感，一口气买下，算了算，有大概7本左右吧……不过我只读了2本。呵呵现在的话就是3本了。不过我希望可以继续阅读，因为米泽穗信，听起来就是一个很有劲的家伙（作家）。

在《2012》这部电影里，有个男主说他在某个短暂的时期里读了2000多本书。哇，数量惊人。所以我也想如“阅事”的同胞一样，开始记录自己的阅读数量，希望这不会称为盗版吧？只是想要培养一个习惯。毕竟电脑电视电话都占了我很多的时间，是时候改进了。这一年快结束了。所以我想这个记录阅读数量的计划只能等到下一年执行了。也就是2015年1月1日。加油啦！！

Confession #2

I've been thinking a list of confessions when I wrote the first one.

But I think I have forgotten it.

Which is a shame.

Confession #1

Beside skrillex,

The song that I found I hated the most is "Rude"

I don't know why, I just hated it.

Whether it's the voice, the melody, or the lyrics.

Probably,

because it brings hope. 

Hope that I never wanted be near it.

Confessions are like knives. 

Truth hurts but lie kills.