If I follow the 72 rule, will I lose?
Should I give it a go?
If it doesn't happen, what should I do?
Should I be giving up hope then?
Should I just end this?
Oh... The last day will be Friday
So it won't be 72 hours.
That is actually the most reassuring thing I have ever encountered today.
That's a very good news. And very pathetic
Okay then, just follow the rules then, you won't lose.
Hopefully.
I have lost the last intact part of me,
physically, not physically
But it is still there
And I am keeping it with me,
as long as I can keep
as long as I am unwilling to give
It will be staying with me
As long as I want it to be
This is the last thing that is still intact in me
It's the last thing that is perfect in me
And I am not,
I am not giving it to anyone
Until I say so.
Until you make an effort.
You see,
I am the most typical girl
I am normal I think normal
I want what every girl can possibly want
Instant replies when I text
Instant pick up when I call
Food when I have cravings
Holding hands when I am with you
Kissing you when I feel like it
Asking about me
Caring about me
Talking about me
Talking to me
Saying "I love you" first
Saying "I miss you" when you miss me
Expressing feelings
Noticing me
Observe me
Understand me
Know me
Making cute promises
No, I don't need dates
No, I don't need movie nights
No, I don't need a night out
I don't need expensive pandora rings
I don't need money between us
I just need, the most fundamental thing, that is love
And that is the only thing I can't have.
Heck I don't even think you remember our anniversary
There won't be an anniversary
There won't be Valentines
There won't be birthdays
This is how much I know you,
This is how much I know us
I know too much
And I hate it when I know too much.
The thing is
It's me that cause all of these.
It's true
Girls should never make the first step
It is stupid for a girl to boldly find love
It is horrendously stupid and idiotic
I am the one that approach you
I am the one that talks to you
Eventually you accepted it
And you accept it fully
But you never need to make an effort
You never need to find a reason
You get everything you want.
The thing is,
when you earned something you really want
You will try your best to never let it go
And that's what I am doing
I try hard and hard and hard to keep you
Because you are what I earned
I earned this love
I earned this relationship
Your everything means everything to me
I cannot make you angry
I cannot make you upset
I cannot because it means I will lose you
And I cannot afford to lose you
Because you are what I earned
And you
You don't make an effort
Because you never earned me
Because I came to you
You automatically have me
I am not what you earned
You won't need to make an effort to keep me
Is doesn't matter if you lose me
You can just find someone else
And you still don't need to make an effort
I regret
I regret so much
For always always always being the person that makes an effort
That is why you do nothing
Because it doesn't matter if you lose me.
So the thing is
I still have this last thing in me
And I am keeping it
Until you make an effort.
You are not getting anything from me.
