The point

It's been so long since I've updated. We finished our exams yesterday, and before that I have resisted updating "something" during the exams because it's the exams.

Today is not a productive day. Just hanging around in Setia and then Jusco. My family first agreed to watch the movie "Oblivion" but then there's a looong queue and the fastest short-cut to buying a ticket is through the Citibank channel. But then their machine broke, so..... cancelled. :/

Yesterday night is fun. I ate steamboat with my previous classmates and celebrated someone's birthday. "Someone" is because it was the first time we met yesterday. I am so bad in making friends. We have to be in an awkward state for like 5 minutes while others are choosing their food, and then finally shook hands, introducing ourselves. I think I did well! Haha....

At 9:30, Dishenlovestaylor and me are the only person left, and we chatted about music, it's been really so long like we have ever talked about music. I really wanted to share Birdy's song. And Lana's too!! And we talked about our classes, most of me talking about how much pressure there is and everyone is so......... unpredictable. Not in a bad way, honest. I love my class, I love everyone. It is just so different from my junior years. The geniuses are endless, and I am really amused. Honest. I even get to feel good about the most boastful person on the planet I am in. I have a small perspective. I am not mature enough to really see the world. So shall I wait patiently.

I bought two books today. It's rare of me to introduce books. "The perks of being a wallflower" and "The fault in our stars", the exactly same book Dishen bought yesterday. And my mum asked me:" Did you really finished reading all those books you bought?" I lied. For some reason, I really don't like borrowing books, whether it's from friends or library. Because I like making my own library. The Perks is an awesome book. It's a different genre to me. I have never really see so much flow in one whole page. The book exceeds in 'changing the subject' and not letting the reader know about it. Excellent book.

Besides books, I gave up on 甄嬛传, because it frustrates me that I cannot watch after episode 10. I don't know why. So I moved forward to 最佳李纯信. Good!

There is a scary truth. I don't LINE, whatsapp, WeChat. And I don't send messages like my friends around me chatting through their devices. There was time when someone tell me to LINE her, and I told her that I don't know how to LINE. And she said, "Seriously? Are you kidding me?" I was dumbfounded, then why am I downloading these apps? For the cute graphics, and emergencies. So I am learning in whatsapp, as for LINE and WeChat, temporarily in garbage.

Am I going to the point? Yeah, I am. The point is, after so much of struggle, I told two of my tuition teachers I won't be attending their classes anymore. And both of them send "ok" to me. What a relief!! And then  I proceeded to whatsapp (see? I am really working hard!) a dance teacher. There are times when I don't know what I am capable of. For example, I gave up the piano because of a tiny "disorder". And when I went back to Hong Kong and told this to my beloved cousin, she said "Oh really? And Beethoven is deaf." Supposedly I kept quiet and reconsidered my decision. I still stopped.
I suppose that there are quite a lot of instruments I can't play well with my unknown disorder. But there is always a way, right? After all, Beethoven is deaf. I will be asking a friend if I can play the guitar with one short of articulatio. You can say I am indecisive, but I say this as searching for my talents, which requires money. And it is ONLY at this time, I hate money.